Showing posts with label body image. Show all posts
Showing posts with label body image. Show all posts

May 01, 2015

Health and wellness/Note to self

I haven't worked out all week. 
Pain level,  2 or 3 , spine / muscles only so I did some stretches.   Need to see chiropractor. Slept great, pain is less than usual, most likely because I took a soma last night. Pressure is 30.06, weather is good, it's sunny.
I went off the rails diet wise and ate all the nasty things. I made a pact with myself: I ate cheesecake and donuts and cookies and a cheese danish and gnocchi.  Now I can go another 2 years gluten free. Or longer! I need to remember how bad I feel when I eat:
Dairy/lactose (aged cheese is ok)
***No ice cream, milk, etc***
Wheat/gluten
Potatoes!!!!
Sugar
Corn!!!
Sodas!!!
Highly processed foods!!
Don't eat them Dawn! You will want to. Do not! I promise. You will feel pain deep in your body and experience mood changes!!! If you fall off the wagon, don't fall off more!!! Get back on! Saying, "oh well why not, I already hurt" will lead to a downward spiral of despair, self loathing, depression  and pain. No excuses!

Rice and oats are fine, in moderation. Occasional heavy cream, sour cream, grassfed butter, greek yogurt, ranch dressing, in moderation, is ok. Not every day!!
Gluten free pasta, once in a while, is ok!!
Paleo desserts, pancakes and breads are fine! Eat those instead! If you're going to add carbs, get them from honey, bananas,  real maple syrup, fruit!
Coconut milk smoothies!
Make better choices. You'll thank me, Dawn. You got this.

April 25, 2015

Meltdown in Walmart

I lost my shit in walmart and coated myself in hated and self loathing and then dumped it all on my poor David.  I'm fat. I gained weight. Their clothes don't fit! (FYI, they never do, but I'm having a meltdown here! Don't reason with me!) I'm a worthless piece of shit human. Srsly, I sabotage my diet and health because I've obvs got some under lying issues that I need deal with.
David is going to help me. I waked almost 5 miles today,  worked out and ate 20 grams of fiber! Something's gotta "give" if you get my drift! I took my stool softener, too.
We just we on a cock roach killing spree in the kitchen. They were in the cat's food! 
I'm tired. And sun burnt. And we went to the Kidz Fest today.