Lost everything when the computer crashed, dagnabit, thank go there wasn't this much this time, because I had only just started using it. I had just completed an awesome self-corpse, you know, just me doing 3 panels for practice, and I lost it! Argh! Hey, I'm a pirate! Yeah, ok whatever.
But, I was able to recover everything from the older computer that crashed a while ago, and saved them as zips to 2 different geocities sites (yeah that much stuff) that I created for the sole purpose of saving them. Why, I suppose you ask, did I not just burn a cd? Because they weren't installed! And I saved what I did when I did because Chantz was going to try to install them and I knew what was going to happen.
Crash.
We got a new computer, a cheap one that has more memory and crap then either of the other two did; ain't technology great? Now I have to download what I missed; I forgot to save my fonts, bookmarks, PSP tubes and brushes! Damn! And I will eventually get around to downloading the zip files I saved online as well...
June 29, 2005
June 26, 2005
Sigh...
I feel so darn blah this week. Chantz' interview was rescheduled for this coming Thursday. The company scheduled interviews while the Wyotech students were still in school! So now we have to wait even longer.
The kids, meaning Chantz and Austin, he-he, are playing San Andreas on the XBox constantly! (NO we are not neglecting school work.) This really ties up my TV time and I have been reading and creating (PSP 7). I took a break from the Invasion Earth books and read The Deed of Paksonarrion, Sheepfarmers Daughter.
Maybe if I go back to the other one I will feel back on track. Or something...
The kids, meaning Chantz and Austin, he-he, are playing San Andreas on the XBox constantly! (NO we are not neglecting school work.) This really ties up my TV time and I have been reading and creating (PSP 7). I took a break from the Invasion Earth books and read The Deed of Paksonarrion, Sheepfarmers Daughter.
Maybe if I go back to the other one I will feel back on track. Or something...
June 14, 2005
To Sidney!
God, am I tired and totally crabby as hell! We are going to Sidney, MT tonight to see my mom and other family members. None of them have seen Bruce yet. Yep, some dumbass, not naming names, decided it would be a good idea to leave tonight and drive while the kids are sleeping- they really do get annoying- but, god! am I tired.
Think Napoleon Dynamite- "god!"
I like that movie.
Good night, not that I get to sleep.
Think Napoleon Dynamite- "god!"
I like that movie.
Good night, not that I get to sleep.
June 12, 2005
New look
I reinstalled PSP7 today for Tessa, but ended up using it myself! I had to dig around and search for graphic images because all of mine are on the computer that decided to fry itself. I got the background and moon images from Ann-S-Thesia's website (link on the left) and manipulated them to create what you see here. I like it better than the old blue theme, which can still be seen if you check out my old home, which has some things that this blog does not.
Anyway, red and orange are more hellish than blue is, even though technically blue fire is hotter than red fire and if there is fire in hell I am sure it would be as hot as the ol' devil could get it...
aww, nevermind.
I like it and that is the way it is. So there. :)
Anyway, red and orange are more hellish than blue is, even though technically blue fire is hotter than red fire and if there is fire in hell I am sure it would be as hot as the ol' devil could get it...
aww, nevermind.
I like it and that is the way it is. So there. :)
June 10, 2005
Bleep
My last post was about my frustration with Austin and Chantz and their inability to function away from these machines called XBox and PC that suck them into a vortex and refuses to spit them out for hours and hours...
Austin is once again limited in his game playing; Chantz came through and moved the XBox into the living room where we can control it. Austin must finish his schoolwork first (yes, he is still being homeschooled through out the summer) before he can play. He can also earn time by playing outside or going to the park.
sidebar: I forced both kids to the park the other day and I had force them to go home!!!
Austin himself has been requesting bedtime stories every night this week! What's more, is that Chantz has been reading to him. Tess and I went to the public library. We got Matilda, Charlie and the Chocolate Factory, Charlotte's Web and, my all time favorite book ever, Mrs Frisby and the Rats of NIMH. That is Austin's bedtime story choice this week. Tess likes Matilda- you know, that cute movie with Danny Devito and Rhea Perlman? about the little girl whose parents are mean to her and send her to an awful school where the headmistress is cruel and evil and makes a boy eat this HUGE cake and Matilda is a genius and magical... the same author as Charlie and the Chocolate Factory...
Sorry, I let my self slip into SofC again. I just can't help it sometimes. I am sorry if it is annoying, oh wait, I'm not. But it is relaxing and this is my blog- so there (envision tongue sticking out).
So my Austin and Chantz issues are resolved, for now, oh how I am ever the optimist, and I feel so much better. I even made Austin a bedtime storybook. It is just a social story to help him get ready for bed and reduce his nervousness and anxiety. It sets up a routine but at the same time leaves room for change to let him know change is ok.
Oh and some of my irrationality and pissiness in my last post might have had something to do with PMS. Might have.
We lost a door knob yesterday. Yeah! Chantz opened the door and off it popped. The look he had was priceless! They actually came and fixed it today! I didn't call until this morning, after our internet shut down and poor Chantz couldn't play with Mikey! Nor bother talk to him on the phone, which is why I was able to call. They even removed some of the seal so the kids can actually open the door now! Aw hell, now I can open the damn door! From the way the landlords usually are (a realtor for Christ's sake) we figured they might come fix it next year.
Did I ever mention that I hate living in Laramie, WY? Well I am now.
I am reading an awesome new series by L Ron Hubbard, think BattleField Earth (NOT the lame-ass movie but the awesome monster of a book), called Mission Earth. It is a science fiction SATIRE from the perspective of the Aliens who are going to invade in 100 years. My god does it make fun of earth and the US and all and I mean all government and local agencies- you know, they all think they run the government, are corrupt and use psychology and drugs to manipulate the population and the universities push CONFORMITY and the world is being destroyed by pollution! Which is why Jet Heller is there to leak technology to preserve our world so it will still be habitable when the Voltarians come to invade in 100 years. But the narrator of the story, Soltan Gris, this pansy ass, mean, stupid, bugs bunny and froyd influenced, creep, incompetent slimeball of a spy with paranoia and god knows what, must make sure Jet doesn't succeed (I won't reveal why). It is so very engrossing. The agency that Soltan works for, called in short the Apparatus, has these initials: CIA.
Truly wonderful and amazing. And the narrator is really disgusting although I sometimes feel sorry for the poor "bleepard" cuz nothing goes his way and he is treated like dirt by his superiors in the same way he treats his subordinates. Ah and there is also a lot of comment on drugs, prostitution and Mafia.
Just good all around entertainment. Not recommended, by me, for kids! Adult content!
I love it! You must read Mission Earth, Invader's Plan (bk 1). Beware, it is a dekalogy. Yep, that means 10 books. 10!
Austin is once again limited in his game playing; Chantz came through and moved the XBox into the living room where we can control it. Austin must finish his schoolwork first (yes, he is still being homeschooled through out the summer) before he can play. He can also earn time by playing outside or going to the park.
sidebar: I forced both kids to the park the other day and I had force them to go home!!!
Austin himself has been requesting bedtime stories every night this week! What's more, is that Chantz has been reading to him. Tess and I went to the public library. We got Matilda, Charlie and the Chocolate Factory, Charlotte's Web and, my all time favorite book ever, Mrs Frisby and the Rats of NIMH. That is Austin's bedtime story choice this week. Tess likes Matilda- you know, that cute movie with Danny Devito and Rhea Perlman? about the little girl whose parents are mean to her and send her to an awful school where the headmistress is cruel and evil and makes a boy eat this HUGE cake and Matilda is a genius and magical... the same author as Charlie and the Chocolate Factory...
Sorry, I let my self slip into SofC again. I just can't help it sometimes. I am sorry if it is annoying, oh wait, I'm not. But it is relaxing and this is my blog- so there (envision tongue sticking out).
So my Austin and Chantz issues are resolved, for now, oh how I am ever the optimist, and I feel so much better. I even made Austin a bedtime storybook. It is just a social story to help him get ready for bed and reduce his nervousness and anxiety. It sets up a routine but at the same time leaves room for change to let him know change is ok.
Oh and some of my irrationality and pissiness in my last post might have had something to do with PMS. Might have.
We lost a door knob yesterday. Yeah! Chantz opened the door and off it popped. The look he had was priceless! They actually came and fixed it today! I didn't call until this morning, after our internet shut down and poor Chantz couldn't play with Mikey! Nor bother talk to him on the phone, which is why I was able to call. They even removed some of the seal so the kids can actually open the door now! Aw hell, now I can open the damn door! From the way the landlords usually are (a realtor for Christ's sake) we figured they might come fix it next year.
Did I ever mention that I hate living in Laramie, WY? Well I am now.
I am reading an awesome new series by L Ron Hubbard, think BattleField Earth (NOT the lame-ass movie but the awesome monster of a book), called Mission Earth. It is a science fiction SATIRE from the perspective of the Aliens who are going to invade in 100 years. My god does it make fun of earth and the US and all and I mean all government and local agencies- you know, they all think they run the government, are corrupt and use psychology and drugs to manipulate the population and the universities push CONFORMITY and the world is being destroyed by pollution! Which is why Jet Heller is there to leak technology to preserve our world so it will still be habitable when the Voltarians come to invade in 100 years. But the narrator of the story, Soltan Gris, this pansy ass, mean, stupid, bugs bunny and froyd influenced, creep, incompetent slimeball of a spy with paranoia and god knows what, must make sure Jet doesn't succeed (I won't reveal why). It is so very engrossing. The agency that Soltan works for, called in short the Apparatus, has these initials: CIA.
Truly wonderful and amazing. And the narrator is really disgusting although I sometimes feel sorry for the poor "bleepard" cuz nothing goes his way and he is treated like dirt by his superiors in the same way he treats his subordinates. Ah and there is also a lot of comment on drugs, prostitution and Mafia.
Just good all around entertainment. Not recommended, by me, for kids! Adult content!
I love it! You must read Mission Earth, Invader's Plan (bk 1). Beware, it is a dekalogy. Yep, that means 10 books. 10!
June 05, 2005
Kid troubles
Austin is autistic [I will not say "my child with autism"- really people- get over it already[ and has sensory integration disorder. He is high functioning; it is called Asperger's. He is addicted to video games and such and since school has let out has done nothing else. I am sorry- but 8 or more hours a day of gaming for a young child is way too much!! Especially if he does nothing else all day. Austin's development is going to be stunted if we let this continue! My problem is that I am left to entertain him... my husband won't. It isn't until Austin melts down that he realizes that we can't let him play for that long just because dad does.
That is another thing; he needs to get off the damn computer and spend time with the kids. He has been this way since they were born. He makes speeches about how we [meaning not him] avoid our problems by reading or playing or watching TV. What the hell does he think his motivation is? Hello! He is avoiding his family.
So he sees it now and he makes plans he can't follow through with. Next week he will forget all about it. Damn it anyway. I am not strong enough to schedule this house. I just can't! Especially when he is home 24/7. Ick. I cannot wait for him to get a job! When he took 6 weeks paternity leave from school after Bruce was born [to help me[- he spent it on the computer every day that Mike had off- as long as Misty wasn't home. She will not let him be on all day if she is home. [They play Everquest together- and spend almost the entire time on the phone. Not because they have anything to say to each other- but because they are to lazy to type![
I do not control Chantz- by far- but I can be a bitch. Maybe I will have to guilt him as much as I can; try to force him to set an example. He thinks it wrong to make the kids do something if he doesn't do it himself. That idea sounds good but it is flawed; Chantz did not spend his childhood on a machine. He spent it outdoors. He says he doesn't know what to do for fun with them; maybe he should goddamn try. And when we do do something- he has no patience! He is Autistic! He doesn't understand!
I get so frustrated- too. I actually hate having him home all the time. I would like some time to myself- especially if I want to read or use the computer myself- other than at 12:30 in the morning. And if I do these things- I have to here him bitch that I am not cleaning and "don't you wanna move?" Or- god forbid- he cleans or works on the truck and I sit on my ass- do I ever here about it. It is ok for me to watch TV- but nothing else. I say I am bored- he says why don't you clean? Hello- why don't you do something with us- take us to the park or walk; do something outside! We did go for a walk the other day- but not with Austin- and had to come home because I had an allergy attack- and we have had a buttload of snow and rain this week [yes in June[ and we did go to Six Flags- but these don't add up. It isn't enough.
Before you get all inflamed and think "my god what a butthole" and she needs to blah blah blah- realize that Chantz is Autistic too. He does what he can. He does the best he can and that is more than I can say for myself. I just hold it all in until I burst and do nothing but bitch to a computer monitor and react through my fingertips. If I had my head out of my butt and paid attention and homeschooled him every day through the summer like I planned and not whimped out because Chantz is home everyday and not let CHANGE ruffle my feathers to total meltdown- this situation would not have happened. I have depression and I know it and it is my own fault if I don't keep it under control.
I must say that I feel much better having vented. No one reads this anyway. It's like a journal I won't loose- use for something else [like make useless lists to relieve anxiety[ and will most likely update regularly.
Ahhh.
I am going to go to bed now. I am tired. Ok- I will most likely prepare tomorrow's lesson. Sunday or now he is learning. So ha!
By the way- the font I use makes commas look like periods and it is quite confusing [but do download it because it is way cool![ That is why I use dashes. I mean- why I go back and delete all commas and replace with dashes. Yes- I had to do that in that and this sentence as well.
yeesh.
That is another thing; he needs to get off the damn computer and spend time with the kids. He has been this way since they were born. He makes speeches about how we [meaning not him] avoid our problems by reading or playing or watching TV. What the hell does he think his motivation is? Hello! He is avoiding his family.
So he sees it now and he makes plans he can't follow through with. Next week he will forget all about it. Damn it anyway. I am not strong enough to schedule this house. I just can't! Especially when he is home 24/7. Ick. I cannot wait for him to get a job! When he took 6 weeks paternity leave from school after Bruce was born [to help me[- he spent it on the computer every day that Mike had off- as long as Misty wasn't home. She will not let him be on all day if she is home. [They play Everquest together- and spend almost the entire time on the phone. Not because they have anything to say to each other- but because they are to lazy to type![
I do not control Chantz- by far- but I can be a bitch. Maybe I will have to guilt him as much as I can; try to force him to set an example. He thinks it wrong to make the kids do something if he doesn't do it himself. That idea sounds good but it is flawed; Chantz did not spend his childhood on a machine. He spent it outdoors. He says he doesn't know what to do for fun with them; maybe he should goddamn try. And when we do do something- he has no patience! He is Autistic! He doesn't understand!
I get so frustrated- too. I actually hate having him home all the time. I would like some time to myself- especially if I want to read or use the computer myself- other than at 12:30 in the morning. And if I do these things- I have to here him bitch that I am not cleaning and "don't you wanna move?" Or- god forbid- he cleans or works on the truck and I sit on my ass- do I ever here about it. It is ok for me to watch TV- but nothing else. I say I am bored- he says why don't you clean? Hello- why don't you do something with us- take us to the park or walk; do something outside! We did go for a walk the other day- but not with Austin- and had to come home because I had an allergy attack- and we have had a buttload of snow and rain this week [yes in June[ and we did go to Six Flags- but these don't add up. It isn't enough.
Before you get all inflamed and think "my god what a butthole" and she needs to blah blah blah- realize that Chantz is Autistic too. He does what he can. He does the best he can and that is more than I can say for myself. I just hold it all in until I burst and do nothing but bitch to a computer monitor and react through my fingertips. If I had my head out of my butt and paid attention and homeschooled him every day through the summer like I planned and not whimped out because Chantz is home everyday and not let CHANGE ruffle my feathers to total meltdown- this situation would not have happened. I have depression and I know it and it is my own fault if I don't keep it under control.
I must say that I feel much better having vented. No one reads this anyway. It's like a journal I won't loose- use for something else [like make useless lists to relieve anxiety[ and will most likely update regularly.
Ahhh.
I am going to go to bed now. I am tired. Ok- I will most likely prepare tomorrow's lesson. Sunday or now he is learning. So ha!
By the way- the font I use makes commas look like periods and it is quite confusing [but do download it because it is way cool![ That is why I use dashes. I mean- why I go back and delete all commas and replace with dashes. Yes- I had to do that in that and this sentence as well.
yeesh.
June 03, 2005
2nd Interview!
Chantz has a second interview scheduled with Schlumberger on June 24th in Oklahoma. The first recruiter told him the job is in Sugar Land TX- but either way I don't really care where the job is. It is an awesome opportunity for him. I cannot wait to find out! This means he will be turning down the job at TravelCenters of America in New York.
So if he doesn't get the job we don't have a backup. I have 21 days to find him another job in case this one bombs. I am going to search in Houston because I would just really love to live there.
Oh- he just graduated from Wyotech and that is why we are looking for a new job and place to live.
Laramie sucks.
So if he doesn't get the job we don't have a backup. I have 21 days to find him another job in case this one bombs. I am going to search in Houston because I would just really love to live there.
Oh- he just graduated from Wyotech and that is why we are looking for a new job and place to live.
Laramie sucks.
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