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I'm tired of the political bullshit. I thought it would end with the election,but it hasn't. Join a real cause or do something useful with y'alls time, but stop posting meme after meme of anti whateveryoudon'tbelieve in. Maybe this school shooting bullshit will die down by Christmas. I'm fixin to wait this one out. Facebook just isn't fun anymore.

Uh oh I'm blogging! You know it's bad!

I feel like poo inside. Sad, bummed, depressed andfor once I know prezactly why. I hate working as a cashier at Kohl's this time of year. It's busy like walmart or a grocery store: non stop checking people out. And I hate it. We got a new manager, so I didn't get to go to shoes. And I'm not familiar with her and well.... I flaked on myself. I'm weak!
I just couldn't tell them how I feel and what I want and the sad part is they do this on purpose. Matilda called me out and said she got anemail that I was leaving. I said yes. And she fucking said no. Pshh as if she has any say in the matter. But if they're going to create an environment where I can't freely speak my mind and I stay, Ima be miserable. It's like they suck the decisiveness out of me. I need to leave and I'm planning my escape.
And this time, I'm not going to cave. I can't live my life to make other people happy. I really can't explain what happens when I try to talk to them. I think they are just very good at getting what they want.
I have to face this. I just don't know how. I need.to quit qnd I need Saturday off.
They have me scheduled on days that I need to work at the other job.... The clients have been waiting for someone for so long that they might lose them if I don't start. I'm trying to do the right thing and its making me sick. I want to tell them to take a flying leap and never go back. Just being there with all those people hurts me. But to do so is irresponsible. Then I feel guilty like I'm just running away. And what about the clients who really need a care giver asap?
Holy fuck just somebody tell me what to do. And by that I mean tell me it's ok to drop Kohl's and how I should do that. I'm miserable.

New Direction

Making a big life change: I'm changing my career! I admit I am a little apprehensive, but I needn't be. I've done this before and I liked it. I filled out my app, had an interview of sorts, and an offer was made. A good offer. We're waiting on my background check and then we'll know for sure.
No more retail! I'll be helping people! Home health care is a completely different direction, but it is something I am very familiar with. Not only have I done it before, but Ma did it while I was growing up.
They said they can load on the hours if I want. I'm very excited. This opportunity fell in my lap- an employee bought some clothes at Kohl's and gave me their card. I knew I had to jump on this. When opportunity knocks, ge up and answer the damn door!
Wish me luck!