Winter Road Dream

I am on the roof of a van that is driving down a hill, and the road is becoming dangerous and curvy and there is snow on the ground. I am concerned that there is snow in southern Texas! The driver is being goofy, and I tell her to slow down. Instead she slams on the brakes to stop, and it does this weird lurching thing like a cartoon and the back comes up off the ground. I reach in through where the windshield should be (but it isn't), to smack her in the head, but she is not driving, instead a boy is. So I climb back into the vehicle. It is spacious, like a camper, with table seating and then a regular bench seat behind it. I sit down with C. The girl who had been driving is dating this dorky smart kid, but she is also secretly dating this hot guy, but everyone knows about it. They have been doing this for years and it confuses me, bothers me. She has a falling out with the dorky kid, finally in my dream opinion, and she gets up from the "picnic table" and moves to sit in the rear seat. I had gotten up for a moment and when I turn around, she is sitting in my spot next to C- on the outside, instead of between him and her hot boyfriend. This pisses me off, and I yell at her and call her a c#nt. This was not a nice thing to do or say and even though I know I am wrong, I sit at the picnic table for a few moments, wondering what C is thinking about me. I feel stupid for being so stubborn, and I get up and take my spot back since she moved. The ambiance of this dream is still with me, but I can't really explain it. It is cold, winter, and grey. it is surreal, and very "art-like". At one point we visit a famous gallery/museum and it is almost gothic, but even that isn't the right word for it. It was a strange dream, to be sure.

I really hate the word c#nt, and am surprised I used it with such vehemence. I know there were a few times when I was lucid dreaming, once when I sat there pondering what C would say if I acted like that in real life. When I was much younger I was very stubborn and would not admit to being wrong. The other lucid moment was when I was confused by the dream logic of her relationship with the two guys.

I have been having many vivid dreams lately, and I might blog about some of them later, if I can still recall what they are about.